I totally meant to write a Toasty Tuesday post, and then I got busy and side-tracked. I’m really not that busy with important things, I just find more ways to procrastinate and distract myself when I work from home. And did I procrastinate and distract myself today! Just not with blogging.
Anyway, I was going to just put this off and write something on Wednesday. But then I found this really cool website called http://www.emotionalbagcheck.com/ It’s a neat concept! You go to the website (obviously) and select whether you want to check or carry someone’s bag. If you check your bag, then you enter in what is bothering you and your e-mail. Don’t worry – the bag is anonymous! Then, someone else can got to the website and “carry” your bag by sending you a message and recommending a song through grooveshark. Pretty cool, huh? It sounds like Amy might be behind this…
I’ve noticed that I have had a really hard time writing about my dad or even talking about him lately. I don’t know what the block is. I can talk about it in a matter-of-fact way, but I’m afraid to go deeper and get into how I’m really feeling. I think I big part of it was because I was so depressed for so long and I’m so scared of falling back into that hole. However, I know that NOT talking about it isn’t the answer either. I just need to find a safe medium that works for me. So while it’s not the same as reaching out to a friend, I decided to give www.emotionalbagcheck.com a try. I just wrote a short little note about how the holidays are always hard with my dad being gone. It felt good to get it out, and it was nice to get some sweet notes and songs from some anonymous people! The first one was “Gracie” by Ben Folds. I actually wanted to dance with my dad to this song at Regan’s and my wedding. What a sweet coincidence.
Dancing with my dad
The other song was “Pray You Through” by Sixteen Stories. I just thought that song was awesome because it hit the nail on the head of what I am looking for when I tell people my story. I’m not looking for anyone to say the magical words to bind up my wounds or anything; a hug or a promise to pray for me means so much and I know that means a lot to others who are going through difficult times. So, I thought I would post these lyrics and link to the song. You can listen to it here and/or read the lyrics below:
The walls are closing in
You feel alone, you feel afraid
Your heart begins to bend
You take a breath and then
It starts to break
Chorus:
I’m all out of words
There’s nothing I could say to you
To take away the hurt
So let me pray you through
Let me pray you through
So lift your shaking hands
Don’t say a word
I’ll stay with you
The tears will heal the pain
You shouldn’t be ashamed
To come undone
Fall down
And let me carry you
I’ll carry you
Chorus:
I’m all out of words
There’s nothing I could say to you
To take away the hurt
So let me pray you through
Chorus:
I’m all out of words
There’s nothing I could say to you
To take away the hurt
So let me pray you through
Let me pray you through
Let me pray you through
Let me pray you through
Let me pray you through
Wow. That song is SO good! I understand what you mean about what you’re looking for when you tell your story. Nobody really has the answers anyways. Just to know they’re praying is super! And the emotional baggage site is totally right up my alley! {& when I saw that they use grooveshark, I thought it was cool!!} I SO wish I had thought of the idea!